Posted 9:35 PM by Ted

well yeah it's monday..and yeah I skipped last week but what's the point..I mean writing these really doesn't get me anywhere. I don't feel better about myself for writing these. I can't wait till I get paid because there is soo much I want to do and having at least some money will make me feel better.  It's weird..the guy who hates the word "goals" and likes to go with the flow is changing. I am n't happy anymore  waiting for something to happen. I need to be the one to make things happen.  The past 9 months have been weird. I am not the same person I was when I graduated. I've talk the talk about change. The time has come where I need to walk the walk. I have learned so much but I know I've only taken the 1st baby steps in a long ass journey. I don't think some of you would accept the viewpoints that I have learned about.  It's ok that you don't accept or understand. It's not about you. I have learned I can't try to change other people I can only change myself. Last week I was mad at about 95% of the people in my life. I realized it's like I was thinking everyone was wrong but me. I also realized that maybe I should look at what I am doing because everyone else can't be wrong..if it was 1 or 2 people I could see that but not everybody. sorry I just keep going on...bottom line is..the last rut I was in should be the last rut. Change starts now and I must accept that. peace out.

Posted 11:13 PM by Ted

Posted 9:54 PM by Ted

hehe heres post number 100:

I forgot to mention the wonderful gift this holiday brought me...15 mosquito bites. I just discovered the last one about 5 mins ago...and guess what.it's on an ass cheek. sitting is going to get annoying soon. see ya

Posted 9:10 PM by Ted

well damn I didn't realize that hadn't posted yet. well two weeks ago I saw Bad Santa. that was good..I got from Nextflix: Kramer vs Kramer..it was ok..and Lost in Translation...weird but good. Once again I've had a ton of BBQ. Had to work..nothing new there. well this past 4th of July weekend, It was interesting..thanks Haydu for inviting me over for fireworks. I learned some people are moochers or dishonest and will try to take advantage of others or get others to do it. If it happens again..that will be the end of that friendship..I maybe cheap but I do believe in fair shares and not paying more because I have acces to more money. I guess they don't know there is a thing called TAXES!! It's not my fault I was born to rich parents. they aren't that poor either..private school and living in JOCO!!! Anyone can go from being poor to being rich. On a related note: I might be called a chep ass for this but I'm waiting to get my house for another year. Out of 5 choices I'm getting the 2nd most expensive one. I figured if I sell 35% of the houses and I get to help 100% of my share..so 50% of total commission..I can pay for my house in cash plus have over $18,000 left and also save over $100,000 in interest from not getting a loan. so if I had an 87,000 loan at 6% for 30 years I would pay over $187,000 all that over 30 years.